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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

wish [ Part III ]

Tuhanku ..
maaf t’lah menggangguMu lagi
kalau boleh
aku ralat pintaku terdahulu

aku hanya ingin Kau curahkan dia bahagia
detik ini dan waktu yang kan datang
dimanapun dia
fana maupun baka

kutepis sudah berjuta pinta untuk diri
tergantikan oleh satu pinta yang hakiki
hanya untuk dia yang slalu memenuhi hati
tak lekang walau oleh mati

Tuhan ..
tolong kabulkan pintaku
setelah itu takkan Kau dengar lagi
jerit rintih pinta untuk diri


djakarta
february 22, 2005
joeffry
- smoga kau bahagia, slamanya -

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wish [ Part II ]


Tuhanku ..
aku malu padaMu
tapi kemana lagi kupanjatkan
doa dan pinta
selain padaMu ?

aku rela jika Kau redupkan asa dan rasa dihatinya
aku hanya sebulir debu terselip diantara kemilau jutaan mutiara
ditatap hanya kacaukan pandangan
dipegang hanya nodai tangan
direngkuh hanya lukai perasaan


tapi Tuhan ..
tambah satu lagi pinta hamba
jangan Kau tanamkan rasa benci dihatinya
sunguh kumohon .. jangan ..

daku tak kuasa bersua dengan pagi
jika ada hati yang benci
bagaimana diri dapat melayani
jika ada hati yang benci

sungguh Tuhan
jangan Kau tanamkan rasa benci dihatinya
hatinya terlalu suci
untuk dinodai oleh benci

djakarta
february 22, 2005
joeffry


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djakarta
february 18, 2005
joeffry

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wish [ Part I ]


Tuhanku ..
hanyalah satu pintaku
buatkan wishlist untuknya
satuuu saja setiap hari
tujuh kali seminggu
tigaratus enam puluh lima kali setahun
terus tahun demi tahun

dan Tuhan
berikan daku upaya
tuk bantu wujudkan asanya

djakarta
february 22, 2005
joeffry

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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

what is love, actually?

Q: Do you think it is love when you let your mate wake up ‘till dawn, even though you knew she had an important things to do in the morning?
A: Nope, it’s selfish

Q: Do you think it is love when you let your mate miss her ceminar?
A: Nope, it’s selfish

Q: Do you think it is love when you let your mate miss her religious obligation?
A: Nope, it’s selfish

Q: Do you think it is love when you let your mate miss her classes?
A: Nope, it’s selfish

Q: Do you think it is love when you humiliate her with
inequitable humors?
A: Nope, it’s selfish

Q: Do you think it is love when you always break your promises?
A: Nope it’s a selfish

Q: Do you think it is love when you let your mate miss her another ceminar?
A: Nope, it’s selfish (What’s wrong with you? Even the donkey will not fallen down to the same hole)

Hmmm, according to the answer above, I start to questioning my love.
Am I realy realy love her or just a selfish guy which hide at the opposite of a millions beautiful love words?

Wise man said that true love is to give not to take; well I’m not wise guy, what I know (and I believe that) is I would do anything for her, as long as it can make her smile. Just as simple as that.
But deep down in my heart I have a dreams that someday she will be mine, and there’s no more ‘me and she’, whats left is only ‘our’.

Am I love her, or just a selfish guy?

djakarta
february 16, 2005
joeffry

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Monday, February 14, 2005

let the journey begin


I’m always mixed up between work and pleasure when I go abroad, but this time it’s totally for pleasure.
Okay, here’s the story:

[Day 1 / Feb 8] Gong Xi Fat Choi
After a bloody boring management meeting and trapped in an unbelievable Jakarta traffic jam, I surprisingly managed to catch the plane to Batam.
Had dinner at Nagoya and saw the beautiful Chinese New Year fire works with my brother’s friend, and then continued to experience the night life in Batam.
Gong Xi Fat Choi.

[Day 2 / Feb 9] Let me drown
Take a ferry straight to Singapore (who said it was fast?)
I cannot forget the moment when I saw my angel’s beautiful face that I love and miss so much, smiling when she looked at me.
Cooked upss.. microwaved our dinner and then hhhmm, we were drown in a laughter …. from dusk ‘till dawn.

[Day 3 / Feb 10] Eat when you starve
Woke up late in the afternoon and then realized that she’s actually so close and real, not only that two dimensional picture I see in the webcam monitor and heard her lovely voice on skype.
Watched the crowded Chinese New Year Festival, ask the women sculptor to carve our faces on clay.
Had a quite romantic dinner to eliminate our hunger or starvation? at Esplanade, continued to
take the authentic bumboat tour down the Singapore River at Boat Quay and finally spent the rest of the night drinking and sitting by the Clarke Quay riverside and savouring the activity all around this electrifying place.
Whooa, what a busy day..

[Day 4 / Feb 11] Beware of the wild animal
Cancelled the plan to see a movie, walked around the famous Orchard Road (not for shopping) but we actually got lost trying to find a restaurant (I forgot the name, who cares; even Shakespeare said “What’s in a name”)
Went to the Botanical Garden, not really explored the area, just stuck at the garden bench and talked. It’s amazed that we can talk for hours without running out of the topic.
Experience The Night Safari at Singapore Zoo which made her a little bit frightened.
End up again at Clarke Quay for a cup of coffee and after that I got my first
lovely persecution (don’t ask me what it is, will u? I’d really appreciate that.)

[Day 5 / Feb 12] Picnic
Picnic at Botanical Garden, sat on an eye catching fuchsia blanket and made loads of people jealous with our activity until the sun goes down.
Dinner at Fosters with Aiida, her funny Singaporean friend;
accompanied by a disturbing singer false voice as background.
It’s supposed to be my last night in Singapore, so we spent the rest of the night together, filled with laughter, talks about future, my second lovely persecution and hhhmmm another starvation. But hey .. it was fun… really.

[Day 6 / Feb 13] Supposed to be back
It’s a lazy day, just lie down on the couch and try to slow down the time. Headed for Tanglin Mall to buy something for her friend in Jakarta and then went to Harbour Front.
Unfortunately or Thanks God ?, I missed the ferry so we needed to wait for the next ferry and of course we have an extra time to spend.
But … I miss the next ferry also … whoaaaa, suddenly I realized that I really really love her and don’t want to separate. But the show must go on, and finally I made it.
It only took around 15 minutes for me to start missing her again, especially when the dvd on the ferry played a video clip of Rod Steward singing ‘When I Need You’.
Hhhmmm… I miss ya babe … and for sure ' a telephone can't take the place of your smile'
Guest what …. I missed the flight too. What a day .. So I had to spend the night at my brother’s friend again and had a delicious fish soup for dinner. Hmmm .. yummy..

[Day 7 / Feb 14] Home Sweet Home
Finally at 6.00 in the morning, my plane took off to Jakarta, on Valentine’s Day.
But babe, I just want you to know that since I know you, everyday is Valentine’s Day.
And it’s definitely the best journey I ever had.

C u on the next trip.

joeffry
djakarta
february 14, 2005

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

let it shine



yesterday

I saw a gloomy night

bathe by crescent beam

surrounded by millions choise of flickering star


this morning
I see a gleam of sunlight
penetrating the soul

warming the heart


my night has gone

my morning have come


my sun

shine

bright do not bedazzle

warm do not burn


chase incoming overcast

parry worriedly of night


and my shiny days has arrived


djakarta

february 08, 2005

joeffry

- thanks for being my sunshine -

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